I'm lost. Finally I got out from China, but I am lost.
I don't know where I am walking to. I am still lost.
I could find a place to sleep, but I am lost,
even if I've been staying here for a week now..
What I want, I can get here, what I need, I can find here.
What I can't get, what I can't find is something
that makes me shocked.
Should I stay? I don't want to. Should I leave?
I can't do that.
What I want, what I don't want is something
that makes me shocked. It means....
Keep moving and meeting shocks is travelling,
but please let me take a rest for a while here.
Keep running and touching shocks is travelling,
but sometimes I don't want to wake up
in the morning.
What I want, I can get here.
What I need, I can find here.
That's why I can't get out of this town.
I'm lost. Finally I got out of China,
but I'm lost. I don't know where I am going to.
I'm still lost. I could find a place to sleep,
but I am lost even if i've got a visa for the next country.
Keep moving and meeting people is travelling
but please leave me alone for a while here.
Keep running and touching culture is travelling,
but sometimes I want to do what I was doing at my home.
Keep moving, running and meeting, touching shocks is travelling.
That's why I leave here tomorrow morning...
written on 1st October 1997 in Kathmandu, Nepal.
I spent the total of 5 months travelling around China
and finally got out and came to the 2nd country in the jurney,
which was Nepal.
But I felt very empty and completed.
Because I really enjoyed travelling China.
I have planned to travel only abour two to three months
but in the end, spend 5 months all across China
except Northeast.
Anyway until today, China is my most
favorite country to travel
among around 60 countries I have ever visited.
And the two best place in China for me are
Turpan and Huan Shan.
